You must be asking yourself where is Jay in all of this? He is doing what men do best and I envy: compartmentalizing. But he is also traveling 2 weeks out the month. I was her target and I am female so I am reacting emotionally. He recognizes this and would come through with his nearly flawless patience. Provide me relief from her whenever he could and be a soundboard and support. These crisis on the very things that can make or break families. He clearly had the strength and I was hanging on a sliver of hope.
My saving grace, on my most difficult days, was the complete assurance I had that she was where was suppose to be. I felt helpless to be sure and every other synonym but I was never hopeless. I had just enough faith to know someone, somewhere had the answers we needed. But for now, we were off to Europe.
